in the bathroom, to 23.30, with two biscuits with cream, bread and a jar of Nutella. I filled half sandwich and two cookies with nutella and the rest of the sandwich I ate in white, with nothing, with only the taste of bread.
This morning I gobbled up a yogurt and 120 ml of orange juice. Now I will cooking for the joy of my brothers and I'll pretend that my 50 g of pasta is a dish fit for a king.
The sad thing is that eating more chocolate, had to eat it in secret, ashamed, throwing bread crumbs in the bidet as a chair and using the toilet.
was as sad thing.
But I can do, is the reality.
was my last binge of chocolate, now begin to count the days do not eat.
My stomach is closed, I went hungry, but I know I'll eat something otherwise I will continue to have this headache and cold sweats all day.
I hate having to eat and have no appetite for power.
I hate having blood pressure to drop and go without forces. Weight 53 kg, not 45.
Before I could go without eating for days, even hours away from breakfast to lunch, my head explodes and the muscles do not respond well.
Should I ask why, but I'm too happy to do so.
Contenta and resigned.
I thought last night in what I will do when I get to 50kg, as employ my time? Maybe I'll put another goal, dropping hypocrisy that I own, or maybe I'll try to keep my level, but then ended dovermmi to accept if I'll see fat (or even see me there at 50 kg it I'm sure).
had to happen sooner or later.
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